Woohoo I faced the outside world today several times and nothing bad happened to me! Don’t get me wrong, the chitter chatter was so loud in my head on many occasions but it was a good bit more tolerable than it has been of late.
The day started on a good note – first I actually woke up just after 12 noon and decided that as it was raining outside it was safe to go out. I can put my hood up and hide that way. So the dogs got a walk and as I was walking back home I got a text from male friend saying he could see me in front of him so I waited on him to catch up and we put the dogs back in the house then went up to some other friends house. I felt anxiety start to rise inside me when we got to their house as I wasn’t sure how long we would be there for but with some subtle deep breathing it eased off. We ended up staying there for three hours, there were a couple of occasions I started to hint that I wanted to go but then I tried to be aware of my breathing and solely concentrate on that which did help a bit. I then went to male friend’s house and had a cuppa and by that time it was almost 5pm so I came home and gave the dogs a quick walk then made dinner.
Male friend came back down about 7pm and we watched some crap on the TV and had a glass of wine and that’s him just left to go home. I think I’m going to have another glass of wine now, give the dogs their last walk and maybe actually sleep through the night which would be a great end to a good day!